January is gone but February is promising to be as cold if not worse.
I don’t do very good in the cold. I find it hard to get motivated to do anything around the house. All I want to do is sit in front of the fire, under the blanket and cuddle up with my boys.
What I find most upsetting about winter is not the cold, although I am not a fan. The darkness of these months is what really gets to me, especially on those days where it is so cloudy and rainy that it feels that the day never started.
For the last few years I have been taking Vitamin D supplements in winter, from around September to (we do have a long Winter in Ireland) and it has helped me a lot. They lift my spirits and help me to cope my the dark cloud over my head.
The lack of motivation and the lack of action during these cold days, lead to a deep sense of guilt within myself. Feeling guilty for not cleaning the house, for not tidying up the toys, for not putting away the laundry, for not wanting to do anything. Meditation helps me put things in perspective, to not get overwhelmed by all these feelings and realize that it is not a big deal if the laundry doesn’t get done or the toys don’t get put away. I also try to set myself small goals, little things to do during the day. Achieving those little goals helps me reconcile my conflicted feelings.
I am still learning to deal with the cold dark days and sometimes they still get me by surprise but I am better at enjoying the days on the couch with the kids, watching films and cuddling, spending time hanging out and chatting about silly things.
The weather will improve, the days will be longer, the boys will grow up and the toys will disappear so I have decided to really enjoy and appreciate those days on the couch with them.
Have a great day.