Do you ever feel like you are constantly chasing your tail? I have been feeling like that since we came back from holidays. I don’t know what it is. It’s not like I have more jobs now than I had before the summer holidays, but for some reason I can’t seem to have enough time to get all my jobs done in a timely manner. It’s not that I am not organised enough. I know what I have to do and how I have to do it, but I just don’t seem to have the drive to get the things done.
It’s not like I am depressed or anything serious. It’s quite the opposite in fact, I am in great form. I wake up in the morning with a smile in my face surrounded by my gorgeous boys, the sun is shinning, the temperature is still quite pleasant… it’s all good… and, yet, I feel like all I am doing is laundry and cleaning, and I have no time for projects. I don’t understand it. My house hasn’t got any bigger and I don’t have any more clothes, and yet I don’t seem to get time for the fun part, the projects, the recipes, the blogging.

I need some ME time

It’s really frustrating me. It feels like it is all work and no play. I miss having time to be creative, to take photographs, to try out delicious recipes, to be me. Not a mum, not a wife, not a family manager, just to be me, Chaotic Itzi. It feels like a vicious circle – I am finding it so hard to find the motivation to get my house jobs done; because I take longer getting the jobs done I end up with no time for my projects and because of that, I end up resenting the chores and delaying them and so having no time for projects again. It’s infuriating and I can only blame myself. We all need some me time, some time out. Time to express ourselves, to become whole.
Always remember to be good to yourself
The good thing is that I have decided to make some changes. They are not big changes, they are small little things. But I am determined to enforce them and make things happen. I am making lists, scheduling my cleaning days and planning meals in advance. That alone will free up some quiet morning time to get things done. I am determined. I have plenty of coffee on the ready and vitamins bought – I am fighting the slump.

Chaotic Itzi

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